As the clock ticked by

17th June, 0402hr.

Money and capital market finals is in 4 hours time.

Gazillion billion finance term are squashing through to make a way in the brain, and hopefully stay there till 1140am. Not to forget financial calculations too.

I feel quite knowledgeable out of a sudden, with the finance market, which involves risk taking, and shares and what ever nonsense related to money. If only I listened more in tutorials I won't be suffering.

17th June, 0405hr.

Odd hour to be awake.

Loved the environment, the still quietness.

No one to shout, talk or anything.

Peace of mind. Full concentration.

17th June, 0406hr.

Looking through my pile of borrowed fiction books, which has nice covers heheh.

Awaiting the reader to peel open the front page, and start to be engrossed in the story itself.

Gargh, but refrain from doing so.

17th June, 0500hr.

Shall be my bedtime.

I'm deadbeat.

19th June, 1630hr.

To a great kick start for the holidays.

Whoopee. Can't wait.

Beneath the smile, it's all tears.

"It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amend..

 

...maybe, I need to see the daylight

to leave behind this half-life

don't you see I'm breaking down"

I still want to become above average in life, because I know I can.
Although life seems bitter at times.

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Soph's 20th, celebrated with a purple vanilla cupcake.






Hugs for the birthday girl.




Complimentary dessert. (:



Okay, I am much cheered up. (:
Geared for my finale lap of studies.

P/s:
#1 Blessed belated Pat! Was busy with finals, will celebrate soon before you fly off to Kiasuland.
#2 Blessed belated Raymas! Though I doubt you read blogs. Hehe.
 

 
I'm getting better. Or at least I should be, when I should be getting other things done.
But I've been good. And tmr's a good day.
A wedding to attend, a summer splash.
(:

 Complexion's getting worse. Stress level increasing. Sleeping hours decreasing. Exam clock ticking. Library hours increased. Social life decreased. Eating time remains. Tsk tsk.

"Don't get lost in the crowd
Be the one to be strong 
And turn heads around 
Moving from dark to light

Cause we live in a world
Of so many choices
It's hard to find
Our own voices
And keep going on 
From day to day."

Centre Stage was beautiful. The grace in ballet melted my heart. Made me feel like picking up ballet, though I know I'm a tad bit late. The ending made me cry, not because of any particular reason, but because she succeeded in the end. Watching shows like this makes you want to be succesful, to strive for it.

I should get some studying done. Today's paper was, bleurgh yuck.

):


So give with the earth
Give with the sky
Give with the innocence."

Ashley Ballard - Don't Get Lost In The Crowd

Tired of being the one who listens,
the one who is the one to turn to when bored,
the one who always seems 'happy',
the one who gives advices to every single problem...

and yet have no one to turn to when she tears.

Post examinations blurbs

Am currently in Monash's library, second floor, seated comfortably with crossed legs in front of the computer screen with my books and notes splatted open in front of me. In between taking short breaks, the mind furiously commanded the hand to write lines after lines of management accounting equations and theories on fresh pieces of lined papers. 5 more new chapters to explore in three days deadline, the mind overworking trying to absorb everything like a sponge absorbing water. Just a little twist that sometimes it wanders off to another land, dreamland to be specific, as the body is crying out for the lack of rest. Oh, and some people are just quite unreasonable, blasting their music on their headphones so loud hello-I-can-hear-you-from-miles-away!. It's settled already though, cause I already told two people off (in a nice way), it's distracting. Still, there is the printing machine's sound that keeps going on, and the clacking of the keyboard, and occasional small talks among people surronding me. How come library like that one.

But all is cool. I've set out an impromptu plan that is pretty unbreathable for the next 19 days. Three days each for all the subjects, from chapter 1 to doing past year papers, I am going to do the unthinkable of trying to gulp down half a year's work in merely half a month. Wheee* It's going to be a battlefield, with me on one side, and the examination papers on the other. Thing is, I lacked the army of fuel and strength, while the other side is prepared for war, smirking at me. Sometimes I feel so incapable in times like this, and am still amazingly surprise what a procrastinator I am, seemingly being able to blog at a time like this. I have to quit my procrastinating habit. But I have been here since 9.30am, so I deserve a ten minutes short break. I solely wanted to run down to the cafeteria to grab my chocolate bubble tea for a deserving treat to awaken the mind, only dismayed to find out I forgot my wallet again. Yes, again. I think this is the 12903894 time I forgot my wallet. Hmph. Am furious at myself. How can I do so stupid things. ):

So now I have to study with an empty stomach, binging on my only available source of food, m&m's, which clearly isn't enough. I want my bubble tea! Ok, I have an alternative of walking myself to sunway, to borrow money from my friend, but it's so far (relatively), and it's so sunny outside. Bleaurgh, I'll just skip lunch. Can fulfill my plan of getting a fitter body. Hehe, and y'day I even motivated myself enough to step on the treadmill and jog for 20 mins. Yay! Who wants to join me on my quest? Haha, option 1: Jogging at Kiara (Hill or park, you choose), option 2: Swimming @Kiara Club, option 3: Badminton sessions, option 4: Cycling at FRIM (or just for the matter around my housing area), option 5: dance classes (which will involve forking out money, geez), option 6: Tennis (hehehehe).

Right, back to the books, scribbles, water, m&m's, highlighters, phone messages, more accounting theories, and a dry sponge as my mind, absorbing it all. Half-contented, for the mo.

[edited: 2.53pm]
Oh, I manage to get my bubble tea with ham and cheese sandwich for my lunch, which really really cheered me up. Weather's really bad, with strong wind and heavy raindrops. Perfect for an afternoon nap actually. And oh, thank you for sparing me money to boost my momentum. And no, I didn't have to walk to Sunway. (:

Back to nerding!