when small things becomes big things..

just a random blog title because my mind is kinda blank now. yeap. many things happen lately. well, but so far my ups are more i guess, which means good thing rite. =) i am glad.

anyway, i was sick over the weekend, causing me a miserable weekend. especially on saturday. so monday i went to the doctor. yea. had to eat yucky yucky medicine. *yuck* but now i feel much better edi. and it feels good. =)

i dun have test this whole week. yes! i am happie. no need to study so hard. yea rite. haha. my mid terms are so near. scary. and i got two major project plus loads and loads of homework. gosh. yea. and smart me still love wasting time. chun eh?

heh. and on tuesday i went to pyramid with jordan. =) ate at dave's deli, his treat, my favourite lasagne. *yum* xp hehe. i love lasagne. so so nice and mouthwathering. i have a soft spot for all western dishes and coffee. really.

so 2006 is really passing by fast. havent really been digesting the happenings yet. heh. but life is indeed okay i guess. except that someone has to spoil it alil. whatever le. i'll get over it. with foosball! hehe. plus food. i want my starbucks. yay!

bleh. ebough blabbering here. i was supposed to do my project. hehe.
buh bye.
*muackz*

blank mind

ish, my stomach hurts so so much now. so pain. since thurday. it's bad. =( plus having a headache. feel sick.
aikz. what a terrible saturday rite. worse still, i am left all alone at home. mummy and daddy went dinner, ses went out, left the poor me at home with just ayamas dinner. =( i wan lots of love and care now. i am sick. and all i get is loneliness. only the com to teman me. *sobs*

i sound so pathetic. yea. whatever le. i love to complain when i get to. but yesterday was quite a confused day, good and bad at the same time. went to asia cafe in the morning during my break, played loads of foosball, yea. and inhaled super loads of second hand smoke, make me so dizzy. yea, and i did a 'fantastic' thing, i lost the diamond on my sister's bracelet, worse still, its her favourite. darn, i am in such great trouble. =( havent got the guts to tell her yet. shall find an identical one and buy it for her. x(

then after classes seong fetch me and we went out. to rileys. foosball again. duh rite. yea. i was supposed to watch movie with him. ish. nvm. so yalar, play foosball, think played more than ten games in a day. like a freak. hah. but it was worth it cuz ravin taught me how to hold the rod properly and learn pull. =) my dribbling still is terrible tho. hah. then went to kayu for supper, or should i say for my lunch and dinner with jia,hock jeen, daniel they all. seong let me drive. =) heh. so fun.

yea. was out for more than twelve hours yesterday, and i slept at three yesterday. today so totally no energy plus all the aches. bla. so i stayed home, alone. and since i really got loads of work to finish up, plus loads of studying. yea. but still prefer to chill online and read the book titled "five ppl u meet in heaven" rather than study. =( so much for a good student.

i realised that everything is different from what you think. yes. reality and dreams are different. you cant always get what you want. but life is like that. a roller coaster ride with ups and downs. i guess today is rather a downride for me. but looking forward to an upwards week next week. at least no test next week. =)

joy.

yesterday was a public holiday. awal muharam i think. heh. and since i just collected my licence on monday, i drove legally on the road for the first time. =) *sense of achievement* ahem ahem. heh.
drove my family to somewhere near the klia airport to visit a family friend, or rather my mum's friend who just gave birth. yup. fun fun fun driving. =p

anyway. i found out that when a mother gives birth to the baby, she is the happiest person on earth. =) joy that cannot be express by words. and the love the mother has for the baby surpresses everything else. this is how great a mum is. she bears the weight in the body for nine months, bears the pain of delivering, and bears the burden of raising the child up. some to think of it, i really wanna thank my mummy. my great mummy! heh.

blabs. anyway. yesterday was a great day cuz i drove alot. *satisfied smile* heh. but today. i did my maths test. ish, i kinda screw it up. yikes, my intergration. =( hope my marks still satisfy me. pls. yea. pretty please.

heh. anyway, i got english plus loads of work to do. shall blod some other time. ciaozz peep! *muacks*

blue, or pink?

i am kinda stuck between these two colours. yea. but in the end, blue still rawks. =)
i guess i am really bored. eheh. on a monday morning feeling so so sleepy. see. thats why i am here blogging. well. blogging sort of makes my time pass quickly and makes me happy cuz i get to complain and just ramp out anything i want without getting stopped by anything. =)

hah. so yea, i did enjoyed a great week. cuz my dear jia yi came back from uk! its not often i get to see her nowadays so yea, i am estatic! heh. went out with her and a bunch of frens on saturday to one u. after dreadful piano classes in the early morning. ended up we watched eight below. typical walt disney snow dog show. with those all starts and ends well story. yes. tho it's kinda predictable and all, i still like it. the dogs were so so adorable, or shoud i say macho and handsome. =) yup. a lil' touching.cuz three dogs died in the end. poor dogs. hah. it was freaking cold in the cinema tho. heh. story between dog and man. but i guess it's not worth the ten bucks. oh well, if only ice age 2 werent full. but the dogs made the show a good one.

so the week went pass and its april now. mid term will be in may, which is in bout one months time. its scary. =( i wanna do well but my body aint cooperating with my mind. when my mind goes " u have to study today.." my body goes "nah, its kay, i am tired and just wanna have fun. " so ended up, the mind loses to the body. hah. i guess my mind concept have to change. yes. to be a firm one.

but, it isn't just because of the tiredness of the physical side of the body. lots of things happened lately, and the thinking totally drained lots of my energy away. arghh. everytime when the night comes then my mind will wander to another place. ish. not fun. sometimes u just have to tell your mind to shut and get the peace u want. yea. i should do that. heh. foosball can certainly cheer me. i wanna go asia cafe this friday. =p

heh. anyway, i got maths now. boring boring maths where all u do is just copy all the things the lecturer writes. baa. ciaoz. *muacks*

piles and piles of work.

yea. so true. when i sit in front of my study table, its like all the papers. so great huh. lets see, i got two whole pages of piano notes to memorise by tmr, lots and lots of chem work, plus an econs topic test next week.. the list just goes on and on.. and i am just so so lazy that i can still dump all of it aside and come online. well, typical me. =)

hah. anyway. i watched ella enchanted at home with my sis that day, with pizza, yum. it is some magical show with fairy tales. call me childish but i like it. heh. well. it ends with a happy ending. yea, and it makes me happy. i really sound so childish. hah. but who cares. its me.

so the weekend is round da corner. well, it is already here actually. but i wun be enjoying this week. got too much work. =( darn. not fun. but looking on da brighter side, i am getting my new phone. =) yes. a new phone. *grinz widely*

on a happier note, i am going off to watch tv plus my theory. =) home alone on a friday night kinda rawkz. well, sort of.

*muackss* *hugz*
have a great weekend! =p

rosanne.happy.smile.

its a bright and shining friday morning, and i am stuck in college. i'm feeling rather hungry now. heh. i want an english breakfast. i miss bacon. =)

anyway, we had mufy games yesterday and everyone was supposed to wear the grey mufy shirt. no offence but i really dun like the colour. it is just so... ugly. gosh. if only they had better taste to change it to black then i will be satisfied. grey is such a hard colour to match u know. oh wells. nothing can be done anyway.

so yea, i played netball yesterday. and well, it was a good game. i enjoyed myself tho we lost. bah. i guess i need to exercise more. haha. can burn fats and keep fit. and its really fun anyway. plus i can my tan. =) *satisfied* so i was telling myself that i will stay back every tuesday, play a game of either netball or basketball, then go for dinner or sumthing. haha. we'll see if it works. and i found a new interest, well, not exactly new but, i am hanging on the phone longer and longer nowadays. gosh. u can just see the clock ticking away holding the phone chatting nonsense. heh. but i like. =p

so i went to asia cafe yesterday since the games ended so early. i met karl son, thiam beng and sueh long there. haha. talk about coincidence. =) and i kinda miss them. havent been seeing tham for a long time. and so i joined them in a game of pool. and i am a noob in pool. i suck in it.
so it was my turn. aims properly.. shoot. and the ball touch nothing. great yea. so great.

but me and beng still won two rounds and lost two rounds. so it wasnt that noob. thanks to beng. pro. =) anyway. it was all plain fun. hehe. and i love having fun and just enjoying times with friends. no worries. hah. but then i had piano at night. potong stim. get home. scribble up my theory work, falling asleep half way doing it. xp i was tired k.

today. i only have three classses. but i have ms test today. and i dun bother bout it cuz its only true and false. can tembak. =) and i am a good aimer. yes. hah.

i wanna go out. i am having a three hour break now. bored to death. and i am hungry. shall head to the cafeteria and fill my poor hungry tummy. *muacks*

=) i haven't been blogging for a week plus. heh. due to the hols. i was kinda enjoying it alot and didnt bother to go online. until today. yea, so many things happen within such a short period of time.

hah. i watched underworld last thurs. i think that is a good show. really. quite dramatic but effects were good. and it had a nice ending. yes. =) a sweet one. i like. heh. i wanna go to the cinema again. i havent watch so many shows. gosh. but college already started and i am busy with studies. aww.. i got no more holidays till may/june. that is so long. sigh. had my chem test yesterday and my engish test the day b4. and english test is no longer an easy piece of thing. it's so much higher standard. hah. i really think that government school should really improve their standard of english. no offence. if not they are killing students who goes overseas and the english standard is so much higher. well. so much for that.

anyway. i have been very busy with piano, my college work plus driving lately. i stupidly fail my parking last time. so have to retake. well, at least i can console myself that i passed my on the road without bribe. actually i feel proud of myself for that. heh. childish huh. x)

owh. anyway i went to lorenzo in the morning with my mum and sis today cuz of the sale. and some stupid things happen. hah. my mum was choosing pillows.. lovely ones. yea, and this lady was also choosing pillows. and so happen she was choosing the same type of cushion pillows with us. okay thats fine. after that she claimed that she took five and pile it up on one of the sofa, and blame my mum for the lack of one. yea. and my mum didnt even touch hers okay. so my mum was pissed and fought back. gosh. some ppl just love to blame ppl without eveidence. whatever.

and i jut realise it is already going into april. time really flies. so fast. hah. and my daily routine in college includes foosballing. i really am getting addicted to it. gosh. hah. it is fun. =) and well, entertaining.

bleukhz. life is getting better tho. =) and i am enjoying it to the fullest! but i still have my priorities. and i will do well in my studies. heh. i think i should start working that body too. getting so lazy. maybe some netball games do help rite. =) heh.

and i am so into the song why can't i turn off the radio-Neo. its nice. =) i like. and i miss shopping. havent been out shopping for quite a long time.

anyway. so much for a saturday at home. told myself to study and look what i ended up doing? hah. so much for priorities and discipline. tee hee.=) *winkz*

a lil thought..

cant really think of how am i going to type this blog. too many thoughts pondering over my mind. =( gosh. i am really dissapointed really, with my results. cuz i practically dissapointed my dad i think. okay, he expected at least 7a's. and i didnt reach the expectation. =( speechless. expect the unexpected.

well. okay, i got mixed emotions. i am not sad but neither happie. cuz i guess i noticed that i didnt really study that hard last year and wasnt the good girl who stayed in class and listen to teacher. no. i was always walking around and talking in class. join lots of dance practices for campfire and blablabla. now i regret. haha. watch two hours of tv everyday and sleep so much. wow. results show that if i put in more effort i would have gotten loads of a's. hehe. so from now on, i shall inspire myself to study real hard in my pre u and get excellent results. no more procastination. yes. my new resolution for the year. i want to succeed. not dissapoint myself. haha.

but yesterday was real fun. hehe. i went for my third driving lessons and manage to drive well without jerking! =) and i know when to change gear, when to press clutch and all that. feel so proud of myself now. hehe. my test will be on wednesday. real crash course. and i must pass. hehe.

dan and cheese drove me to the curve yesterday just to show me a miracle. a fountain which water flows up. hehe. so cute of them. it really did cheer me up. thanks both of u! muackz. hehe. had a late dinner at kayu after that, i was surprise at the amount of food i manage to eat. maggi goreng, thosai, plus a real long roti tissue. so cute! hehe. food was yummy. =) and really please me plus my tummy. *satisfactory smile*

i guess the day wasnt that bad after all. as ppl say, a's are not the most important thing in life. frens, attitude and well being plays a much more important role in life. and when u get to college, there's no more a's but just high distinction. so bye bye a's. =)

hehe. and something never fails to cheer me up no matter what mood or where am i. my beloved chocs. =)

** indulgence.. ;p















plus a lil red rose. just for myself.

spm is coming out tmr. but i am not feeling anything. why? hehe. maybe cuz it's not time yet. or maybe cuz i am very calm. =) well. i went for driving again today. and this time on the road. haha. learn how to change gear and all, and i found out i am not that good. *aikz* must practise more. anyway, no mood to blog. so shall post pics for my genting trip. haha. tho its kinda outdated.

* me n my sista on flying jumbo.. haha.















** me drivin'! so fun!















** me posing beside waterfall.. =)















** cool pic.. i like..















** yummylicious food..




















** dinasour land posing with my sis. ;)














** up, up and away!














** me n my couzie!
















** lil white horsie.. in genting. poor thing have
to endure the cold weather.. aww..














** this is my brilliant sister trying to be statue of liberty!



















** me n allie!


anyway, i am sleepy. hehe. and i got a long day tmr. so tata! muackz.

through the rain...

"i can make it through the rain,
i can stand up once again,
on my own, and i know,
that i am strong enough to live... "

this song is so meaningful to me right now. i am strong to make it through the rain. i guess.
i sound so depress rite. haha. i guess i am okay but sad and moody at the same time. my blog sound so depress and boring rite. nvm. i'll make the last half of the post interesting for sure. cuz bad and good things happen at the same time today. =)

bad thing is i went through sumthing terrible this morn. dun feel like talking or mentioning it. it hurts.

good thing for the day is i went for my first driving lesson today. =) first lessons are always clumsy and stupid yet cute at the same time. heh. story time.

so i got there at 4, slurping my last bits of bubble tea. *nice* hehe. saw my instructor, quite a serious looking but okay one i guess. so got inside the car. (i was lucky to have a brand new kancil to drive! on my first lesson somemore. *satisfied* ) hehe. sat in the car, adjusted the seat and mirror.. started the engine. managed to control quite well. haha. but mati engine a few times cuz control of the clutch wasnt that good.

spend three long dreadful hours in the car. i am not complaining. but my legs and hands were aching. the sterreing is so hard okay, spend so much energy just turning it. gosh.i did fairly well for my parking and three point turn. never bang anything down. =) *please with myself* but i am fairly angry with myself for not being able to coordinate well for the going down of the slope. yikez. how can i be so clumsy. mati engine on the slope quite a few times. and end up pressing the accelerator too hard. but it was all well in the end. got back home feeling tired. a whole full day for me today. i wan my driving licence!

anyway, i guess i am a lil too selfish and self centred at times. i guess i didnt realize the effort he put in. i am sorry. i make mistakes. but things are different now. not like last time. i guess time changes things. bleughz.
let time decide.

anyway, i got a high distinction for my econs paper! *cheerio* =) i am please with myself for doing quite well now despite being so playful. hehe. Thank God! hope i did well in my english essay tho. wasnt really paying my full concentration writing it . end up writing a crap essay. =(

its my term break starting from today. one whole week of with spm results coming out on monday.
i hope i get good results. if not it will ruin my holidays. oh well, we will see.